Today I feel like an expectant mother waiting for a child to be born. I have a lot of excitement along with anxiety. Excitement to know that this is hopefully my last chemo treatment and anxiety knowing that I will feel sick. But, I also know that the only way out of chemo is through it. Just like childbirth. No, I will not be taking home a new child, but I do have this "new life" that I have been given. Yes, it has been a fight, but I have a new found lease on life! I do not take anything for granted. Like they say, you truly don't appreciate everything you have until its gone or someone tries to take it away, or it gives out. Then you wished that you would have taken better care or been more aware, instead of being so busy with the trivial things, that you let the most important things slide by.
I guess that this journey that I have been on, and will continue to be aware of, the rest of my life, is that "Life is too Short to be anything but Happy". Every morning when I wake up and the "Gift" of another day is given to me, I feel so blessed for everything that I have. Even though times are tough in the world around us, I am so grateful for the little everyday things in life that surround me, as well as the big things that I have been blessed with.
On June 3rd, I will be having chemo, the 1st day of my last round, which also happens to be my 35th wedding anniversary. No, this isn't what we had planned for our 35th anniversay, but having my husband by my side, like he has been for the last 35 years, in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, is all that we want, just to be together, hand in hand, and being given the gift of more time together!! That is what life is really about. The people you share it with, not the "stuff" that we think is important. I have my life and my family to enjoy ~ and it has been worth the fight to keep that!!
June 10th, will be my last injection of chemo (day 8 of round 6). I will get to wear a crown and celebrate with my new found friends that are also celebrating their new lives~ and are also cancer survivors!!
I want to thank all of you, my family, friends and co-workers, for your prayers, e-mails and beautiful cards, but most of all for you taking of your time to think of me and help keep me uplifted. You are truly my "Angels" here on earth. You know the people that truly care about you in times like these, and are there for you while you "dance in the rain" waiting for the "storm to pass".
I will keep you posted after the "grand finale". I hope to be released and back to work around the end of June! In the meantime, "Simplify your Life". Learn to play, rather than work your way through it!!
Hugs, Kisses and Happiness Wishes!
Sheree
What a beautiful post! You inspire so many of us! My mom's family and my family have been keeping you in our prayers through this long journey and you definitely deserve to "wear a crown" at the end of this! Each day truly is a gift and the more people who realize this, the better our world is going to become. Best wishes on everything, we love you! The Doubts and Richardson Families
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